Usually for me I start feeling terrible for no reason. I feel kind of empty inside and I wish I had never been born. I just can't stop hating myself and I want to kill myself thousands of times. I'm so tired that I have to smile when I don't want to. I'm so hopeless to feel nobody can save me right now. If I die, nobody will ever care. I have tried. I tried to talk to someone, but all the sorrow of me just sounds like a joke. Yes, it's a joke, a killing one. I know what happened to me, but I really don't know what to do and what can I do...